When Will God Be Done Remaking Me?

As addicts, we are all-or-nothing, black-and-white, instant gratification kinds of people. Once we have decided we’re done with being addicts and that we want the new life that God promises us in recovery, we want change and we crave rebirth. And naturally, we want it all right now.

Working Through The 12 Steps Of Recovery

We have taken the first steps of recovery, or maybe we’ve successfully passed through all of the 12 steps and we’re enjoying continuous sobriety. Yes, we feel good about this, but when we look at our lives, we still see wreckage, much of it within ourselves.

In Step Four, we looked at our many resentments, we examined the way we felt others had wronged us and the ways in which we had wronged others. We made amends. But we have to admit that in some cases, we hadn’t truly been freed of the anger. We completed the process, but the vestiges of resentment remained. We didn’t like to think that so much negativity still lingered in our hearts, but it did.

In Step Six, we looked at our many character defects and we confessed them before God, praying in Step Seven that we would be willing to let all of them go and that He would take them from us. We felt some relief for a while, but then we started to notice these same old defects creeping in again. As we completed our daily inventories with the 10th Step, we felt frustrated by the resentment, anger, fear and selfishness that still pervaded our lives.

How Long Will It Take For God To Remake Me? Will I Always Struggle?

Have Faith as a Mustard Seed-God Remaking Me-ChristianDrugRehab.comWe have been on the path, we have been following the rules, we have been praying and seeking to grow spiritually, yet we often feel we are barely making progress. We are told that we are to depend upon God to remake us and yet we wonder why we don’t see much evidence of it. When will this remaking process become evident? How long will it take? Will we always struggle?

A lot of us don’t want to acknowledge that spiritual growth and rebirth is a lifelong process—one that requires quite a lot of patience, humility and obedience. We want to get through the 12 steps and arrive at glory. We envision reaching some Zen mountaintop where we will be safely perched above the cares and troubles of the world. We want to grow beyond all the things that have bothered us and held us back.

However neither the Bible nor the Big Book promises this kind of outcome. We aren’t created for the mountaintop; we’re created for life on the ground, and it’s often messy, broken and difficult.

In Christ We Have Hope

In Christ we are assured of lifelong growth that will result in glory when he returns, but there is no clause about spiritual perfection on Earth. As it says in Philippians 1:6: “And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.” We are promised that the work that has been started by God in us—the remaking process—will come to completion and fruition. God has not started us on this path in order to abandon us. But we must take the long view.

How To Be Patient With Slow Growth

How do we do this in our daily lives? How do we become patient and content with slow growth and a process that often seems more like regression?

It starts with faith that God is in charge and that this process is for our good. It begins with trusting the loving and grace-filled character of God. He is not seeking to punish us or make our lives difficult. He is seeking to make us new. His ways are above ours and we cannot know the process He will use. What looks like regression and stumbling to man may be God’s perfect plan for leading us into glory.

We follow up with radical gratitude. God has brought us to a safe place in sobriety and recovery. And if we are sober today, we have every opportunity to keep growing into the new creatures the Bible speaks of. We can look at the many trials we have come through and the many ways in which we have been blessed, and we can rejoice. When we are always looking at what’s wrong, we fail to see what’s right. This doesn’t mean we should become complacent about the areas in which we still need to grow, but that we can be grateful for all of the ways in which we can already see God remaking us.

We live, grow and heal by faith in Christ and by our commitment to continue the path of recovery. If we do this, we will indeed be remade.